Saturday, May 23, 2009
wondering why am i posting at this freakin time when tml i have work at like 7.30AM? yes. freakin WISP is getting on my nerves. i can't seem to get it well written so that i can freakin hand it up. what's making it worst is. i haven even started on sterotyping. WTH!!!
ahhh. work aside. have been hooked up on this song: xu yuan shu by guo mei mei. its hard to come by such a tune recently. it brought back alot of memories. it made me felt a little sour. in a good way though. i felt blessed. with friends. with love. with care. with family. every single one of them are as important. the song made me felt a little motivated to strive harder. to work harder. to move a little more forward in life.
its really on repeat a dozen times. i cant get this tune off my head either. very emotional indeed. it evokes the feelings kept down inside. down inside of me. made me reflect alot. how far i;ve come by. how much mistake i made. how much hardwork i've put in. how many wrong routes i've taken, how much success i had. it made me felt a lill freshen up. it seem like i can restart my engines and commence work once more.
its wonders sometimes how tunes work....
i miss dear. unusually loads. the feeling of it.. its hard to describe. i alway wonder how far would we go. and i have this unusual motivation. to do every single thing just for him. for he's that special one. i may have said this to many. i may have said this a zillion times. i may have said it to someone else. but this time round. it feels different. i hardly confess my past doings. and i did. i admit i am not one perfect girl. but i love being myself. and whats best of all is you love me being me. its hard to come by one for accepting you for who you are. not someone who says that. but someone who really does that. he doesnt expect to me change anything at all. and he has never complain anything. he create wonders in my life. his not that type of love i had. not those sweet loving type of love. not those puppy love i guess. something more mature. more claming. more simple. its pointless writing so much... i realise. i may write thousand word essay why i love him. but its not true until the left breath of my life. we'll never know, whose our life long partner till the very last second. there is this something about this. its weird. i constantly repeated that i dont want kids. yet, there something about it this days that. me. yes me. wants kids. wants a family of my own. weirddd... it explains somehow. in my heart....
friends. like i say. they made up a great part of my life. they may nt spent life time with me. there are certain ppl who made a great impact in my life.... i give in my all to stay with them....
yes. i better be off. WHY CANT MY ESSAY BE AS EASY AS WRITING THIS. WITHING 10 MINUTES I WROTE THIS! wthh is wrong? god knows!!!
claire
Thursday, May 21, 2009
i'm suppose to bath and study now. and yet i've done nothing. shiet me=( i've loads of work undone. my tax tuts for tml aint done. my WISP and PFIT thousand word report aint done. and this weekend i have ZERO-time for it. interview is up on 3june. dont feel any tension now. i know i would soon....
life's been a whore. year 3 is seriously making me gasping for air already. just five weeks of school is making me sick... i realise i'm constantly losing myself during lectures. only manage to focus for an hr or so and i'll start scribbling stuff on my notes. or either i'll fall asleep. well. its time to whip my horse and buck up! CLAIRE TAN; mugging time!
rights. be back again. i better be off bathing then do my work and proj. the next three days is totally packed. packed i mean TOTALLY FULL. from the moment i open my eyes till the time i close my eyes. i'm occupied with at least SOMETHING. awww.
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you
hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or
will stay awake just to watch you sleep. wait for the boy who kisses your
forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who
holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty
without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and
how lucky he is to have YOU. The one who turns to his friends and says, thats
her... Are you that boy?
Claire
Monday, May 18, 2009
when the mood is here, i can't seem to resist blogging. sometimes. i really wan to enforce some self discipline so that i will finish my work before doing non essential stuff. but it doesnt works all the time. whatever...
i'm a little emotion struck recently. and then and again. i need walk by the shorelines... was rather persistent in going sentosa on saturday evening. but dear didnt allowed. so stayed at home. spent my evening errr. with him.
sometimes. emotion comes rather sudden. so sudden that it cant be dealt with. i need to move on in life. seriously i think so. and OIAP. i'm still. pondering about my decision. worth or not? thats a question. i feel like growing up. i feel like moving on.
i need some plans in life. seriously.
rights. better get back to my work before rushing it again. BYE
CLAIRE
Saturday, May 16, 2009
BONJOUR! gonna go back to sch on a pretty sunny saturday. HOW NICE. projs are piling. time to get started before i'm squashed alive by them=D
i had this date with dear today=) totally awesome! well. had lesson in the morning as usual. dear took the day off to have a date with meeeeee=D when i was playing FB during lesson, mr chua went swimming and tanning alone! EWWWW. see chio bu SAY LAR! HAHAH! lesson ended early. called dear and he came over to fetch me. and so, after studying the street directory for days. I BECAME AN EXPERT=D and the credits goes to my distinction in geog. HAHA! anyway. brought dear to my old office area to eat claypot rice=D yummy yum yum. didnt regret at all even though it was a bit pricey. head to east coast park. cycling=D HAHA. we drove to cycle. lame i know. but i dont care. we had fun. anyway. sat at bedok jetty for some time. talking about everything. we cycled and chit chat. superrr cool! shared alot of things. alot of reflections. alot of emotions=) went in search for fishing. end up we did found and someone went prawning without baiting any prawn. HAHA! lobsy huh.... it started raining cats and dogs. we were both shivering under that SMALL umbrella. LOL! stayed at the prawning area till the rain finally stopped. went off to bath at this super ulu toilet. beside the safety park. LOL! there was only us. SCARY. and this stupid guy keep pacing outside the toilet. and nice enough, my boy waiting outside for me to finish bathing. and duh duh duh we went off to la cantina!!! perfect. the place was as nice as ever, as perfect as ever. as serene as ever. as romantic as ever. and whats even nicer was dear totally loved that place. and with sheer luck, dear ordered what i had ordered the previous time i went. HAHA. after we were filled to the brim, went over to airport. awaits jo arrrival. saw some YHHB mates too. and jo's parent. hmmm. went to get jo a lill gift and lionel teck and johnny reached. saw jo chit chat and off we go. home sweet home.
our fingers were locked and our heart beat as one... the journey home was though spent in silence but in love. thanks for the message this morning. it was as good as having you beside me. thanks for the memories....
and... surprisingly... we didnt took a single photo. LOL! reason number 1: both our phones have sucky cameras. 2: we were so indulge in whatever we are doing that we totally forgot abt it.
HAHA! its time to get a camera=) week ahead its gonna be school and and nothing. BUT i look forward to the weekends. saturday night we're going out with two daughters. and sunday will be the chalet ald=) what can be more nicey nice then that? alrights. i'm off to bath and school. be back again=)
CLAIRE
Thursday, May 14, 2009
well. nth much to blog about. life's been pretty occupied with sch and tuition. not much spare time in fact. finished my tuts during break this morning. so i was browsing through my old photos. HAHA. i kinda miss my old hair style. er well.... i don't know. whenever my hair has outgrown the usual length. i just feel like snipping it away. or go to the saloon to get it changed. i'm kind of sick with my current hair. BORING! well. at first, i wanted to grow it LONG. but when its long like now. i feel like snipping it off. WTH is wrong with meee. LOL! well. with my current bangs. sunglasses looks retarded on me. i want my layered fringe BACK! uhhhhhh. but my old hairstyle makes me looks super bimbo. LOL! AWWWWWWWWWW.... ok. someone tell me. what should i DO?
can i just have a split character?
i miss fat fat=(
CLAIRE
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
argh! enough of tuition. i've been giving tuition almost everyday. alrights. IT IS EVERDAY. dammit. the kids are driving me crazy. YES. crazy. GRRRRR!
dear came over yesterday night. he loves disturbing my dog. and my fatsy. LOL! and he got more to talk to my SISSY then to mee. HELLO! who's ur gf? and my sissy got more things to talk to him then to me. HELLO! who's ur sister? and my MUMMY! got more jokes to crake with him then with me. HELLO! who's ur child. booo. everyone talk to him. I AM J.E.A.L.O.U.S!
anyway. i was complaining that my stomach was growling. wanted to order mac delivery with my sissy. LOL! end up, my boy drove me to bukit timah for supper=) then night spin. HEH! and we both love it so much that we couldnt sleep after that. i miss dearrrr.....
well. today was LAME. suppose to have lesson from 9-11, 12-4. but due to some graduation ceremony. lecture from 2-4 was cancelled last week. law tuts was push back to 10-11 on sunday. and when i woke up this morning. i received a msg saying that lesson from 12-2 was also cancelled. WTH!!! i went to school for just an hr of lesson. WASTE MY BUS FARE! haha. and jacq being super blurr. sms the msg wrongly. well well. but we did manage to surprise bel though. we're good enough=D anyway. had pizza hut for lunch and homed. bus trip was pleasant with my two girls. anddid some tuts and off for tuition marathon again. suckie. whatever. went dear's house after that. HAHA. and funny stuffs happened. LOL! after dear bathed and ate, went JP to meet his mummy to walk around. ended up in ding tai fung chatting. went to 504 and dear sent me home. and currently i am missing him....
and a little note to my dearest les: its been long since i post you something. and u happen to be appearing in my mind now. hmm. u've been busy with lotsa stuff recently. take good care of ur health and take ample rest. i'm not here to look after you but u know my heart and ears are always here. come what may, you're still the best lessie on earth=D iLu!
its been thus far we've came and les, its gonna go one like this^^
alrights.thats all for a little note. and jo is coming back soon. awaits her return=) w/o her crap for a month seems a little different.
PS: my boy, please take good care of your health. i know you dont come here often but still.... sarang heyo^^
PSS: its been long since i see the two girls. CMM misses you girls.
CLAIRE
Monday, May 11, 2009
life's been pretty busy. thus the lack of updates. had mummy's celebration on friday night. dear drove me sissy and mummy to birdhill for dinner. saturday was family gathering at granny's place. dear came over to granny place to fetch me to JP. strolled and sat down at ajisen for dinner. dear ate. we both love that place=D then home sweet home. it was a sweet night. sunday. which was yesterday. out shopping with mummy. bought an exactly same dress with mummy=D walked around in jp and homed. went over to dear's place for BBQ. nice night^^
well. that was a summary of everything. i cant remember anything else except that i am teaching multiple tuition everyday. this sucks=(
**i am blessed. blessed with him. even though things i done wrong. really wrong. absolutely wrong. even though he was furious was disappointed but he couldnt bear to scold me. he merely stroke my hair and spoke to me. dear. i never felt that bless. thanks for being so magnanimous. so understanding. so MATURE. yes. so mature. thanks dear. for the sms-es this morning. it brighten my day...
"cause you are the person who is vey important to me now..."
PHOTOS BELOW: i may missed out some taken. pardon meee. its long since i updated=X








PS: i have an exciting week ahead...
PSS: i'm waiting for some FAT FAT to come meet his ROUND ROUND. SOOOOO LONG!
PSSS: i changed my blog song=) well. had been on my repeat playlist recently. somehow. listening to it. made me felt a lill different. it contains nice memories maybe.
CLAIRE
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
woke up this morning to dear's call. well. i was up before that. but was still lazing in bed. chatted with him all the way till redhill. he hanged and i was about to bath... then i received a msg from him saying" don't go bath first" was wondering why.... and then. DING DONG! i went like. so early? hmm. and guess what. dear ordered mac delivery for meeeeee=D thanks lovely. for making my day=)
claire
Monday, May 04, 2009
i know i haven blogged about saturday night. met up with dear and CDT JDT for supper at 504. they ate i didnt. i was full. all came over my house to chill. was pretty tired by the time they came. dragged dear to doctor for he has been coughing for days. BOO! mild infection=( they left at around 1AM plus.
yesterday was tuition in the morning. met amy in the afternoon and then to dear's house. slack and played games. RC=) i need items please!!! then went out for dinner with dear's family. taiwan porridge again. HAHA! nice indeed. and i'm glad you had a nice day dear=) LOVES.
i MISS les=( i'll see her later anyway.
Claire
Sunday, May 03, 2009
some ppl are just so bloody irresponsible. scratch and escape. some idiot. some faggots. why makes you think it is not ur fault? and who gives you the right to escape? dont you know YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE?!?!?! damm you. its really irritating for such people to exist. cant you afford a few hundreds buck as compensation? and if you cant bloody drive, DONT! you suck for making my darling sad. you suck for beng so irresponsible. you suck for scratching beetle. you suck for even existing. i dont care i am being mean or not. i dont care if you have any explaination. i'm sorry for being so crude, BUT I THINK YOU DESERVE EVEN MORE THAN THIS! bastard!!!
claire
just a quick update i guess. pretty tired. well. yesterday was monthsary. met dear after tuition and head to suntec for dinner. had teppanyaki at suntec. not bad. we like it there. actually our main motive was to eat and meet that two girls there. but there happen that both didnt turn up. so left us playing the arcade. changed 20 bucks. we seriously had a fun time there. played bball, time crisis, silent hill, house of the dead, some driving stuff. HAHAA. totally enjoyed. like i say, he must be honoured i played with him. DUH! hahah! it was just a special day. really=D its not about the quantity of time spent together, its about the quality of time spent together.
met choo and head jurong. went fei xiong. chatted alot while choo ate. HSH after that^^
today was a long day. suppose to be tuition but i cancelled it cause had to acc granny to doc. whole day spent with family. pretty fruitful. did some catching up with each others life. somehow. i pretty like it that way. where everyone seems so closely bonded. sometimes, somethings like this shouldnt be taken for granted. cause you'll never know when will you regret not caring about.
theres more to say. tml maybe.



claire
Friday, May 01, 2009
claire
Monday, April 27, 2009
wondering why am i blogging. cause i'm BORED in class. having WISP now. the module is seriously a nag. why do the school thinks i'm bothered to know about stereotypes? LOL! FB is failing me also. restaurant city aint loading and i cant get all my stuff. POUTS! =(
something on a lighter note. i was sms-ing with dear and happen to know that we were eating the same thing. my fav- jagabee=D well. for the first time we think aike. LOL!
alrights. i've got nth to blog actually. just wonder about. nothing to do and decided i have neglected my blog for quite some time. have i? HAHA!
anyway. i'm excited. my shopping stuff is reaching me soon. SOON=D
PS: me les and derek let out a big SIGH when teacher says we're having abreak. DUH!
Claire
Saturday, April 25, 2009
had tuition today. till mummy's back then off we head to ikea. Refurnish my room. after walking for hrs. we decided on a bed a table and some accessories stuff. spent nearing 800 bucks. LOL! and IKEA. charges $4 for one hole drilled. WTH!!!! but anyway. ate hong kong cafe for dinner. =) OH YA! finally i got time for manicure. its been soooo long ever since i re polish my nails. awww! but i got it done today=D. alrights. time for bed soon. enjoy pictures below!
thats all folks.
CLAIRE
Friday, April 24, 2009
oh yes. hols are over and busy bee days are here. school started on monday. where did i stop blogging? ahh. i forgot. shall just highlight main events ok? no one would be interested to read those small details of my life either. sch was as usual. maybe because its ald the third year. dont feel anything special about school starting. went flyers with lessie after sch on monday. ME love the bus trip. as serene as ever. with lovely song playing on ipoddy. me and les slept till bugis=X alighted near cityhall and walked through chijmes to get to raffles city. beautiful place indeed. and i always dream of going. one day=D walked all the way to flyers. we enjoyed the trip walking over. complaining about everything under the sunset=D we did all sorts of stupid stuff inside the capsules. u will see when u scroll below for the photos. LOL! dinner at makansutra. me love that place. brings back certain memories half yr back=D me and lessie loves the chicken wings. trained home after that. and I WANT TO GO MARINA BARRAGE. I WANT I WANT! =((
tuesday was a perfect happy day. school in the morning. back for tuition and home for dinnered. was in a happy mood=D and what makes it even happier was the night spin. dear suddenly said he want to bring me out and off we head to holland V. as nice place as ever in the night. the silence and beauty of the night. we ate at some jap restaurant. or rather HE ATE. haha i had ice cream. =D and walked around. hit our fav. supermarkets. LOL! had so so so much fun there. dear thanks for that night. i knew how happy you were and i was as happy. we could even laugh when there was no joke cracked. all we had was a smile hang over our face during the ride home. even we said nothing. even it was just the tune of the songs playing. we smiled and cuddle in love. dear. thanks so much for bringing joy. thanks so much for making my day. you made my life SIMPLE. thats the word. and thats the life. simple life. simple us. simple love. dear. i simply love you. i miss you dearly. i wan more time for just us.
rights. yesterday. nothing much. school . head to IMM with jacqueen after school to jalan jalan. then head piano and tuition. went to jp after tuition and bought a dress from pepper plus. met dear and home 55 for dinner. watched snipper with dear. me like=D 1st, the movie got EDISON. 2nd. i watched with dear. i went like, EDISONNNN MY HUSBAND. and someone was jealous=X hahha. even it was just as simple as watching a movie in your room, i enjoyed the time spent. cause it was just me and you. =D thanks dearieeeeeeee!
shant blog about today. nothing was nice except for meeting dear in the evening=(

























Claire