GRACIOUS ME

today's a crappy day. nvm. tml will be a better day(: last paper's up tml. FMGT. the curse of my life. why do we seriously have to study things that we will throw it behind our mind once paper is over? NO POINT! its okay. i shall learn to love it(: for now i mean.

i-dont-know-what-to-say. am i being overly emotional over some matters? i couldnt help but felt butterflies in my stomach and tears almost came rolling down my face. its scary how the world can be. its scary how some men can be. i question myself today. will this ever happen to me again. and then again, i fear. is it a fear? or has it became a phobia? i dont know. i have many thoughts towards such issue and many questions too. they dont deserve me cursing or swearing cause thats how life could be. the fear in me grows. i came to question myself another, should i trust anymore? i fear lies. sometimes when your day was filled with hapineess and suddenly, something bad struck you. that feeling. i want to die. you will feel like banging against the wall and just die. seriously.

that red pumping thing shattered when i see upon my close little princess, shedding tears, trying to cover. i saw that split image of me. wearing a mask, trying to look happy. i seldom share my emotion cause i felt better being alone. i felt better hiding under those blankets, talking a stroll alone. princess, dont hide please. no one knows better this feeling but me. it hurts not releasing. i found you. omeone who i can tell every truth. i hope i play the same role too. princess i know you inside out. i know, how u felt. my ears are always open my time is always here.

life's been a whore cause of exams. but having dear by my side was the best thing out of everything. thanks for all the constant support, the time spent. thanks for taking time out. even when you are busy from head to toe from monday to sunday from twelve nn to twelve midnight. thanks for sparing that time even when u have serious business on hands. like i said "time was the best gift you gave"

just tell me you'll never let this happen to me. just tell me you'll never stop loving me. just tell me everything will be like it is now. just tell me we'll give in to each other. just tell me i am the only one in your heart. just tell me you'll love me forever.

i swear i will master "si shou lian tan" just for you.

no. me and vin is fine then and again. just some. review of my thoughts. thats all.

assurance needed,
claire