its a long weekend...
its PH today. but i'm still back in office working OT. what hella? cause tax deadline is on monday. so i have more and more finals to rush out. however, its fun seeing the office the other way around. and my mentor OT till 1AM last night. gosh! imagine! and everything is pulling me away from my world. MY world. if u get what i mean. well. fact is, non cant be relied. and non is there for life. u have to work for it. put in effort. put in ur sweat. i sick and tired in working for it. in being the only soul giving out. putting in the effort. i wrote the email. but i've yet to sent. childish or what? i dont know.
this sentence came to me... god sent us down to earth to repent our sins. is that the truth? and if u have to work to live. then isnt life=work. and then, isnt it better to not live? oh wells. i dont know whats going thru that puny thing up my head. but i definitely know two major thing in my life is now pulling me apart from alot of stuff. "you chose this yourself".... quite true. however. i just merely stopped initiating if all realise. and just merely STOP INITIATING causes such a big change. i dunno what the heck am i ranting here. but i stressed up to my ass i swear. there'e two side of work i have to look after. in fact 3....
sometimes. i reckon the fact that giving up this much brought me alot too. like happy relationship. promising future. lovely bf. certain commitments. and eureka peeps. if i were the one who have changed and isolated.. why the heck can i still be so close with certain ppl? i dont understand this fact...
and i've come to know that... everyone plays a part in everything. if one puts in the effort and not the other. then there's no point and it wont bring u any ending either. oh wells. i get what sam mean by the bucket bucket thingy. its true in fact. but then and again... im not regreting my choice.. but i will work harder to bring back the past. i'm making an effort.... will the rest?
i miss jacq... she'll understand when she's around. she'll be here.. she'll tok to out. i swear she'll be the nicest around=( seriously, she is indifferent in some ways. jacq. u hear this? IMY!
Claire
Time flies. and i'm walking on towards the age of 20. i've been feeling OLD recently. for some reason... maybe due to the things i can involve. and maybe once again, i am lazy to doll myself up. just so happen that i went on to friendster cause i am so bloody free. saw some of the few pics. i really wonder... time really flies. it shows below...
and this is when i just completed my GCE 'O'. still that XMM.
this is when i just started working waiting for poly admission.
and i had my curls. i was DARING last time.
last year end. still chio.
OH! MY BARBIE DOLL HAIR. ok. this is black and white, i had my bangs and it was blonde(:
i was EVEN PUNK! can imagine? i was so so so DARING. aint like now.. constrains
and this was this year? or last year end. oh. its last year end i suppose.
time really flies man! i was so daring last time know. OK. i got one more hairstyle which is not here. couldnt find any pic on it. it was when i had my black hair with red highlights. SUPER CHAO AH LIAN ONE! omg. flashing back. i was really really daring. can imagine. i changed 4 shocking hairstyle in one year itself. not 4 simple. cut abit, trim there that kind. is 4 MAJOR change. i know theres more kua zhang ppl around. BUT! god. its so not me now... time flies and i've changed. alot. in character wise in look wise. i've changed. good or bad? u decide(:
Claire
HELLO! am back. heh! am gonna post photos only. so enjoy!
sam sam gave me this(: thanks sam fo the angel.
JAMIE (JDT) BIRTHDAY!
02/11 was jdt's bday. met her during dinner time and went cathay to celebrate. HOPE U ENJOYED IT AND LIKE ALL THE PRESSIES(: loves u loads, CMM
my boy looks sauve in this shirt!
and this girl that i adore!
my two precious
yours soon(:
we wore hoodies tgt(:
LAO PEI PEI!
Happy 10th Monthsary! went to our fav resturant again(: its realy nice and relaxing. more photos in his phone. will post when i kope over. fat hopes for him to upload.
Bun bun(:
Our bears bears in his room(:
Bear bear and bear bear
i've got a nake version of this. SO ACYL. u naughty. U TRY!
Sentosa tanning day(:
OH! we BBQ-ed also(: good life! the satay was FABS!
plus a bottle of fizzy drink. damm shuang!
NAH! my big fat round face. IMAGINE!
took alot more. but force to choose this cause he smiles nicely here-.-
in office. round enough also.
Claire
clarification
i'm sorry if you're one of those who took up my previous post. it was just meant to be a joke because i was posting the pics. HEH! sorry for the unnecessary wooha.
lifes been busy. and i've got no mood to post about anything now. bye
claire
an effort; a thankyou
this post is specially dedicated to those we played a part to hang that smile on my face during my birthday(:
very first of all. i want to give a very big thank you to
alvin chua yu long, my boyfriend. thanks for all the effort put in. i recognise evry single bit of them. thanks for the necklace. i know it cost u a bomb. thanks for the time spent coming to my hse secretly to fix the desktop. i know it was tiring. thanks for the planning process. me myself does alot. i know how difficult it is. thanks for all the love care and concern. it was everything i could i asked for. everything i needed. from coming my hse secretly to fix the comp, surprising me at 12 midnight, chilling out at tanjong, huggings at merlion top, dinner at carnivore and the night spin home. thanks for being such a nice boy. i know we both cant promise each other forever. but i know too, we will try our best yea.
CDT & JDT. thanks for being two such wonderful daughters. thanks for being there for me. consoling me. espcially that one month w/o GDD. thanks the both of u for every single effort. thanks for the perfume, thanks for the surprise at twelve midnight with GDD! thanks for the frame card. it was totally beautiful. it was great effort i can see. thanks alot!
Lessie, Oht & Derek. thanks for the time we had tgt. thanks for the wonderful memories u guys created. thanks for the support u guys have gave me. w/o that, i wouldnt have pull through everything till now being a happy girl. thanks alot. u guys have never left my heart. and u guys will never. thanks for the SK necklace. i promise i will wear it(: thanks for the time taken to have the dinner with me. thanks alot for everything(:
Cats and Dogs. You guys were sweeeeeeet. thanks for the dinner tgt. thanks for the cake. thanks for the sweet balloon. thanks for adding to my book collection. i was really so so happy to see u guys. like i say. nt that attachment it nt good. just that i prefer u guys more than anything. i really really miss u guys alot. its sometimes i cant put in words. will email cats soon k(: love u all.
JACQUELINE. thanks for the call babe. i dont know can u see this. BUT. i still wanna thank you. it brighten up my day. TOTALLY! u know how i feel. i always sent u love mail. dont i? AHAH see u soon lovely. muacks.
Peiqin sis(: thanks for the call. like ur bro say. u seldom call ppl. so i felt really really honoured! have a safe trip there and enjoy urself! bless u^^ and i haven thank u for the help during his bday. thanks alot! love u.
YY chua and Kelvin chua. thanks both of u for the wishes on the dot. haha. thanks for staying up late to wish me. even though i know U GUYS WERE DOTA-ING. am i right. HAHA! but anway. thanks for the wishes and all the jokes u guys brought to my life.
Fatty sis. thanks for ur watch lar. haha. i really like it. thanks for being my maid. thanks for letting me bully. still i wan u to know. U ARE NICE KAES. tsk! *roll eyes* anyway. still i wan to let u know. i do love u and whenever u fall. i will be there to pick u up cause as long as we live, we run the same blood. love u(:
Jumper. thanks for being such a nice dog. and thanks for unwilling to say happy birthday to me:( why cant u just bark. HERN! haha. but u are a nice dog. i lovee u fluffy! maybe i shld rename u as fluffy big ear.. HOW HOW?
Sam old sam =P thanks for the card like always. even we seldom meet and even seldom chat. u never fail to make an effort to sent me cards on bday and xmas every year. and u know very well. i always look forward to it. and and. thanks for the keychain. its hanging on my key ald(: u are right. it suits me and i love it(:
Mozzi bro. thanks for that effort in meeting me to sent me my greetings. u always made a great bro but i dont deny the fact that U ALWAYS BULLY ME. but still. u are the best bro i could ask for! i said what i wanted to the last post. SO U KNOW HUHHH.
Weilong. thanks for ur shoe. thanks for the effort for drawing the whole shoe urself. ur art is still as fantastic as ever(: hmm. i've never tok to you for quite sometime. hope u are doing well. i heard from lessie u are working. hope its a nice job for u. do take care and bless u.
Thanks to all those who
sms-ed me. those who wished me on
facebook. u guys did hang a smile on my face and thanks to those we wished me for letting me know i was not forgotten(:
PS: i will add on to this list, after tuesday(:
Claire
