the tune that kept me going on...
wondering why am i posting at this freakin time when tml i have work at like 7.30AM? yes. freakin WISP is getting on my nerves. i can't seem to get it well written so that i can freakin hand it up. what's making it worst is. i haven even started on sterotyping. WTH!!!
ahhh. work aside. have been hooked up on this song: xu yuan shu by guo mei mei. its hard to come by such a tune recently. it brought back alot of memories. it made me felt a little sour. in a good way though. i felt blessed. with friends. with love. with care. with family. every single one of them are as important. the song made me felt a little motivated to strive harder. to work harder. to move a little more forward in life.
its really on repeat a dozen times. i cant get this tune off my head either. very emotional indeed. it evokes the feelings kept down inside. down inside of me. made me reflect alot. how far i;ve come by. how much mistake i made. how much hardwork i've put in. how many wrong routes i've taken, how much success i had. it made me felt a lill freshen up. it seem like i can restart my engines and commence work once more.
its wonders sometimes how tunes work....
i miss dear. unusually loads. the feeling of it.. its hard to describe. i alway wonder how far would we go. and i have this unusual motivation. to do every single thing just for him. for he's that special one. i may have said this to many. i may have said this a zillion times. i may have said it to someone else. but this time round. it feels different. i hardly confess my past doings. and i did. i admit i am not one perfect girl. but i love being myself. and whats best of all is you love me being me. its hard to come by one for accepting you for who you are. not someone who says that. but someone who really does that. he doesnt expect to me change anything at all. and he has never complain anything. he create wonders in my life. his not that type of love i had. not those sweet loving type of love. not those puppy love i guess. something more mature. more claming. more simple. its pointless writing so much... i realise. i may write thousand word essay why i love him. but its not true until the left breath of my life. we'll never know, whose our life long partner till the very last second. there is this something about this. its weird. i constantly repeated that i dont want kids. yet, there something about it this days that. me. yes me. wants kids. wants a family of my own. weirddd... it explains somehow. in my heart....
friends. like i say. they made up a great part of my life. they may nt spent life time with me. there are certain ppl who made a great impact in my life.... i give in my all to stay with them....
yes. i better be off. WHY CANT MY ESSAY BE AS EASY AS WRITING THIS. WITHING 10 MINUTES I WROTE THIS! wthh is wrong? god knows!!!
claire
