this old shabby left out uncared blog of mine. its time to come back and clear some webs and fill it with more memories. HAHA. ok. weeks passed have been hectic. projects projects and still. projects. july aint a good month. an unwanted month. i hate JULY. it sucks always. its sucks cause its the start of a new school term in sec sch days. it sucks in POLY cause its hitting near exams. and it sucks cause its in the middle of no where. no festival no nothing. AWWW!!!
recently, i'm always stuck with deep pondering moments. i worried too much. i become a little too paranoid. i feel un secure at times. somehow. i reflect back and got reminded about that confident and free self years ago. and where did she go? maybe that accident 2-3 years ago did make that very great impact on me and that i understand what is no one is perfect.
maybe its time i should build up some confidence and move a step further in life. its another say 40 plus days and i'm gonna be steping into the society and face all sorts of obstacles and politics all by myself. i am always confident that i am good in terms of interpersonal relationship and facing such politics. i feel there will always this down side of me. i cant predict how future may come by but i believe its gonna be a rocky path for me.
it sucks to know and gets super frighten about certain stuff. but i believe i should grow strong enough to curb all these and i cant afford to break down cause everyone is pinning their hopes on me. i dont wan to disappoint any.
final reports, exams, study breaks. and it sucks even more to know. i will be having my papers when darling is having his first week of break by then. i curse sometimes why are we taking a different path.
what more can i get being in year 3? it sucks totally.
just tell me you love me. appreciate me. and let me know you cared. thats what i need most i guess.
AIYA. it sucks uploading photos using NPNet. its damm slow. anyway. i dont have any photo for recent. only those long ago ones. it goes to blame not having a camera. maybt i should get a proper one. photos are important. i wan to have fun. i wan to play. i cant setle down. i wan endless of fun. shit=(
CLAIRE
