i know i am suppose to blog about bf's birthday. but no no. not this post yet. something more emotional came about suddenly. been all caught up with work and bf recently. hardly had anytime for something else. so much so that i think i neglected my friends. well. i always told myself. if there are friends. maybe they would understand. but this came round to me suddenly. how many of them do REALLY understand? one by one they starts to drift off. one by one they stop contacing me. well. i am not regretting that i chose to spent all my time with bf. in fact. i love it. but. its disheartening to see. ppl around me getting less and less oblivious to my presence. and this made me feel bro is such a nice person really. matters how many times i rejected his meet ups. how many times i flew his aeroplane. and i literally mean it. last minute one somemore. how many times i didnt picked up his call. he NEVER NEVER gave up on contacting me. really. he never never lose that effort to at least text me. when i was bored in the office. he was there to cheer me up and gave me a lill encourage. instead of some "ah lah, as usual lah u" comments. well. i can't blame either. cause ultimately it was me who chose to give up all my time to bf. sometimes. i really dont know whether issit the right choice. but still. i never did regretted. cause alvin's really nice. but back to the same point. i feel kind of disappointed. especially. someone so close indeed....

Claire