Just the thought of writing again. it always happens when i stay up till late night and when all the nonsensical emotion dawns on me. I had a great, fun day. today. with the grace from my manager, i get to skip work-from-home and had a total awesome meet up with jacq. We went USS. my second try. the fun wasnt the main thing. the happiness was. nothing beats a bright sunny day out with ur best girlfriend.

i hate not having enough time. i had being always so not busy. i hate having so much commitment. i hate life. w/o joy. i need a break. i need a vacation.

there is more than a 1000 place worth to visit before i bid a goodbye to this world. i need time. i need that finance, to be able to fulfill this dream. time is short, chances are few. and the only question is:

When will i be able to fulfil this dream?

i feel a squeeze. right in my heart. i have a lot of question, which i am unable to answer..

i need a break. definitely.

and i look forward to seeing bf. i miss him. dearly. i wan time to fly. for him to get out of the freaking NS and to move on and create a future. i need him:(